So, for the past several nights, I’ve been having really vivid and intense dreams. For the most part, that not out of the ordinary for me. Both my mother and sister get really insane dreams all the time, just like I do. But it’s the content of these latest dreams that has me concerned. For the past few days, I’ve been having dreams about being unfaithful to my husband. Yikes.
The other night, I was in a hotel with some random guy I’ve never seen before. My husband was in our room, but I and this other person went to his room and… I was unfaithful. Even in the dream, I was telling this guy that I love my husband and that we shouldn’t be doing this. Then last night, I was dreaming that I met a male celebrity at a stage play, and we ended up [being unfaithful] backstage. Then Adam and I bought a zoo, and this celebrity had a hand in donating money to the zoo, so he was around all the time. He and I would sneak off and either [be unfaithful] or make out or whatever. There have been others, but they haven’t been as vivid.
Of all things to be afraid of, I think my biggest fear is being unfaithful to Adam. I wouldn’t ever, but knowing that SOOO many people I know have makes me super scared that maybe my morals aren’t in the right place. Adam means everything to me, and it scares me to think that I would ever purposefully be unfaithful to him, when he’s been nothing but fantastic to me. I know that this is a really strange subject for you to read about, but I had to write it out before my brain exploded.
Has anybody else experienced this? What can I do to make these dreams stop? If nothing else, they’re making me mentally exhausted more than I already am (a topic for another post, soon to come). I just want to stop having these dreams. It wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t remember them in so much detail. But that zoo one… I can still make out the face of the celebrity that I was [being unfaithful] with, and it kills me. It kills me to think that, even though it wasn’t really me, I was making someone else happy. I don’t know what to do here.
I’m so lost and confused about why I’m dreaming about this. I want it to stop.